What I know about life thus far is that it can be pretty fucked up sometimes.
What is finally clicking for me in 2019 is that despite how fucked up some of the realities of the world may be, my one job on earth is to live my life despite it all.
Any of the other rules we / I / society follow are simply made up and sometimes (mostly) bullshit. Look around you and reflect on the things that (in)form your perspective. We guzzle media like fuel. Do we even have thoughts? What happened to free will? Will you take a picture of me by this cool wall?
The truth of the matter is, humans go through far too much distress and trauma in our long but also short lives. A lot of which is induced by the privileged and inflicted on those who somehow seem to have permanently fallen lower on the food chain. This is a food chain where nobody can “win”. A cycle we need to snap out of. A spectrum of lived experiences that makes me cringe.
I’m referring to abundance & scarcity in a time where everything is so “smart” and “green.”
In this world of ours,
I need balance,
Through mindful affirmations:
I’m ready to wake up.
I’m ready to be better.
Sweeping things under the rug can only ever work for so long.
What doesn’t kill me makes me stronger, but that doesn’t mean I should be so horribly toxic to myself as if I’m trying to prove a point. There are so many other aspects of life that try to deter me from my true purpose, I need to play on my own team, not against myself.
Self-depreciation is the result of media programming focusing us on our shortcomings. Scheduled programming. Subscriptions. What do you mean I have to wait two hours?
Good things take time.
We are all uncertain about our own individual lives, social circles, choices, existence and so on, but we’re conditioned to grin and bare it from a very young age. This is is what we mean by implicit.
Society pressures and impacts families and communities. We all came from somewhere. Do you see where I’m going with this?
I recently watched a video from one of my throwback YouTube favorites, Amy Lee about the law of attraction, and it really hit home for me because in 2018 I learned so many lessons about how we have the power to rewrite or stay prisoner to our false (self) narratives. Those toxic seeds planted when we are young that grow into thorny prickles that we also blame ourselves for can be extracted. It might not be the most comfortable thing, but after this stage you’ll be able to truly heal.
Once you believe you have the power to speak what you want into existence, mindfulness and thoughtfulness around your intention is key. Tell yourself everyday “I got this.” Convince yourself that success is the only outcome. Build a plan and take things one step at a time because you can do a n y t h i n g .
I’ve always been the type of person who would write down all of their goals, almost obsessively, but I never realized how much impact this practice still continuously has on my life until just now.
In 2019, I have big dreams, so why not write a grounding manifesto based on my core values and purpose?
In 2019 I want to manifest…
…dolla dolla bills y’all
This is what I want.
In 2019, I’m excited to take intentional steps on a consistent basis to transform my wants into my reality. Some of the things on my list might seem cliche, or even selfish, but to that I ask, so what? I know what I want and I am open to receiving the fruits of my intentional labor. If you’re not here for that, you are free to leave. Or stay. Or whatever, really.
Stay tuned for progress updates and the like on le blog (aka my internet journal) as I work towards my goals and share stories along the way. If there’s something you’re working towards, remember that vulnerability promotes accountability.
Fancy meeting you here,
we’re all in this together.